Hey Ruch

I hate goodbyes and this month-end is a bad time for me…

As if 1 farewell isn’t enough (yesterday was her last day), in less than 12 hours, someone even closer to me will be leaving!!! And with a much higher probability that I might never see her again! 😦

Dearest Ruch,

Sometimes I just wonder…How did we become this close? It must have happened somewhere between the very first time we met (you gave me polvorons!) and the countless times you sleptover (one particular incident, when you only had the clothes on your back! Haha!)…but it didn’t matter what, when and how it happened, I’m just glad it did…

Fortunate to have been blessed by your warmth, your love and your friendship, my dear sister…

(strangers tend to say we look alike – do we?)

Man do I hate goodbyes…and yet, they’re part and parcel of life. Simply inevitable! Anyhow, I hope you liked the video (that I asked my bro to help me make) for you…now here’s something I did myself (ie. I edited the lyrics -_-).

Please sing it along the tunes of The Beatles’ “Hey Jude” (If you don’t know the song, download it first! LOL.) :

Enjoy? 😀

Hey Ruch, when you feel sad
Sing this mad song and you’ll feel better
Remember that you are in our hearts
Then you will start to feel much better

Hey Ruch, don’t be afraid
You were made to go out and be loved
The minute you remember all of us here
Then you’ll begin to see it clearer

And anytime you feel the pain, hey Ruch, refrain
Don’t carry the world upon your shoulders
For well you know that it’s a fool who plays it cool
By making her world a little colder
Na na na, na na, na na na na

Hey Ruch, don’t let Him down
You have found Him, now go and share Him
Remember to let Him into your heart
Then you can start to make it better

So let it out and let it in, hey Ruch, begin
You’re waiting for someone to perform with
And don’t you know that it’s just you? Hey Ruch, you’ll do
The movement you need is on your shoulder
Na na na, na na, na na na na, yeah

Hey Ruch, don’t be so sad
Sing this mad song and feel much better
Remember to let Love under your skin
Then you begin to make it better
Better, better, better, better, better, oh!

Na na na, na-na na na
Na-na na na, hey Ruch
Na na na, na-na na na
Na-na na na, hey Ruch

Na na na, na-na na na
Na-na na na, hey Ruch
Na na na, na-na na na
Na-na na na, hey Ruch

Na na na, na-na na na
Na-na na na, hey Ruch
Na na na, na-na na na
Na-na na na, hey Ruch


Please do take good care of yourself, keep in touch & God bless you always…


It’s complicated

I’m sure you’re all farmiliar with that huh?

Status in friendster? It’s complicated.

So how are you guys doing? It’s complicated.

Is everything okay? It’s complicated.

Can you say anything else aside from “it’s complicated”?It’s complicated.

Really…sometimes I feel that phrase is just over-used, over-rated and is simply an excuse for any further discussion!

And what is the most complicated of “It’s complicated”s?

I’ve had this thought in my head for a while now and then when I read drumstick’s post I thought now would be the time to post about this.


Everyone’s fave subject.

What equates to the perfect relationship?

10% luck?

20% skill?

15% concentrated power of will?

5% pleasure?

50% pain?

I wish I had a 100% formula to answer that question…

Since it’s USUALLY a guy-meets-girl-and-guy-gets-girl scenario, let’s just make this one of those rare scenarios where girl-meets-boy shall we? 🙂

Girl and Guy and many other mutual friends attend this party together…and somehow, out of the many people in that group of friends, Girl and Guy were suddenly seen by others as being “together” as in “a couple”, when of course, they were not. But from that “weird” moment on, they decided, “let’s play along” and therefore successfully conned everyone at the party that they were indeed “together”…and in that process, Girl actually started to have feelings for Guy

Later, Girl asked Guy: “They already think we’re together…I don’t like lying. Why don’t we be couples – for real?”

And from then on, Girl and Guy kept in touched practically every day…

…practically every day…but it has always been Girl who seemed to make the first move. Girl was the first to sms. Girl was the first to call. Girl was the first to admit her feelings. And Girl felt that being 1st constantly was really really worrying…and Girl starts to question whether Guy is in the relationship or not…

Cibol had this in his YM status once: “It’s a game. Manipulation of emotions.”

And he elaborated that in his post:

“It’s a game of power, manipulation of emotions to control someone’s mind. And yes its a serious game. It’s a game where one who displays their emotions first, gives up total control to the next and goes around like a dog on a collar.”

Is that really how the “game” is to be played?

So it was wrong that Girl displayed her emotions 1st?

That’s the difference between Girls and Guys

I’ve never been in a relationship before, but based on my observations of those who have been/are in one, girls wear their hearts on their sleeves. When we’re happy, you know it. When we’re sad, you know it. When we’re hurt, you know it. But Guys…I believe the term is “ego”…when they’re happy, they might show it. When they’re sad/hurt, they seldom show it…well, except maybe the way they show it is different? Or maybe that all’s because of this “game”plan of theirs…?

Girls/Guys, is it wrong to let Guy/Girl know how much he/she means to you? Is it wrong for Guy/Girl to let you know how much you mean to him/her?

I dunno. It’s complicated. Why don’t you tell me?

9 days before Christmas…

Yes, I am THAT excited for Christmas that I’m counting days…

Plus, in 6 more days, I will be going home for Christmas! HURRAY!!! 😀

In the meantime, I think I’ll survive the days before then…Pre-Christmas is preettyy “happening” here in Kuching…hehe…

Yesterday night we went to the Travillion grounds because we spotted this there:

A Christmas Tree!!! (Honestly, I have never seen a Christmas Tree of this size in Kuching(for the public) before…)

Anyways, so we headed for the tree and it was “snowing” then…Awesome…

If you don’t know why there is a big lighted Christmas Tree in the center of Kuching (can consider center lah, it IS in Padungan)…it’s because of this:

Yup, it’s one of Celcom‘s X-Pax big events…“Count the Xs and WIN” contest…

Sure…like I’m gonna bother and count the X on the Christmas TreeGood Luck! 🙂

So while I’m not bothered by the contest, I am simply delighted of the whole Christmas “aura” with the big tree and “snow” and Christmas songs in the background (there was a stage set for some groups performing and singing carols and then some…)

Santa also made an appearance…

Santa had his groove on, shaking his booty while playing the saxaphone…LOL.

There was also this:

Yes…you make a wish and throw coins into the Well (that’s how it usually goes…)

What’s that? Well, that’s the Well

*Disspointed it’s not a real Well* hehe…but its for a good cause still…

So make a wish and donate people… 🙂

And since yesterday was only the official opening of the Christmas Project @ Travillion (i.e only the 1st day)…I believe I’ll be making an appearance there again….hehe…

Here’s the Tentative Programme:-

You may try and zoom in to read the details (sorry the pictures aren’t clear, I need a camphone with better pixel-power) *hint* Christmas gift *hint* 🙂

So if you’re planning to go there, be there at 7.30pm or 9.30pmWhy? Cos that’s when it’ll “snow”…hehehe…

Merry Christmas in advance people!!!

Have you been naughty or nice? 😀

Of bowling, luck, food and friendships…

I know it has been lightyears since my last post…

*Thousands apologies* readers…I have no excuse…So let me just proceed to tell you what I’ve been up to this month. 🙂

After my previous lucky streak bowling, I went again the week after.

This time I went with collegues. There were 5 of us colleagues, an ex-colleague, a collegue’s mom and nephew…we took up 2 lanes and played 2 games straight! And the outcome?



This was my score for the 2nd game (which was even worse than the 1st game…)

Yea,I was the champ alright…Drain Champ aka Juara Longkang. Yeesh!

We did joke about buying 4Ds after that. The predictions – 7777, 0707, 0770…(based on my lousy scores)…

And guess what number won 2 days later? 0707. Not kidding. My collegue showed me the winning number in the papers. 0707 won consolation prize.

Too bad we didn’t actually buy the number like we “said” we would. Heh.

I also went out with Lola and her cousin for lunch one Saturday…we went to Mr Ho’s Fine Foods (NON-HALAL k..) in Crowne Plaza Towers…No reviews. I don’t do reviews. The pictures should speak for themselves.

I forgot what drinks Lola and her cousin had but mine (center) was Milk Tea.

Crispy Pork with Apple Sauce…FYI, Crispy Pork is one of Mr Ho’s specialty.

Tiger Prawn Pasta…another specialty.

Hungry dy? Hehehe…

Well, if you noticed, there were 3 of us and 3 drinks but only 2 dish…That was ‘cos I was distracted by the size of the plate my Pasta Alfredo with Ham was served in…I kept trying to figure out just the right angle to take a pic of it with my camphone, so Lola and her cousin overtook me to take pics of their dish above. Eventually when they were done, I completely forgot I haven’t taken a pic of mine and we began eating dy. Hahaha…next time ler. But I guarantee you…Not only did it LOOK good, the taste was HEAVENLY (if you’re into cheese and pasta you won’t be dissapointed with this CHEESY dish!) and FILLING too! I was still quite full come dinner time.

I guess that’s MY review – the price may be on the high-end, but once in a while, treat yourself to good food. It was totally worth every penny.

I also had this mini reunion of sorts when out-of-the-blue an old friend working in Johor came to Kuching for her PTD assessment thingy. Immediately upon her arrival at the airport we kidnapped her and we went out for dinner and tonnes of catching up. And then another old friend came up from Bintulu and we too hung out. Most importantly, yesterday was a big day for a special friend of mine….

It was her wedding day.

I was supposed to be working yesterday but I requested from my big boss a replacement leave so that I could attend the service at church that morning…(Yes, I am the kind of person that can drop almost whatever I’m doing to be there for my friends. Strength or weakness, who knows?)

I am a very EMO (emotional) person when it comes to weddings…I was sniffing during the vows and “I Do’s” and later that night when I said goodbye to her after her wedding reception…Happy tears of course, but somehow, it’s just so overwhelming to watch a really close friend walk down the aisle, say “I Do” and watch as they start their new life as someone’s spouse…

Here was my small wedding gift to them…

A gift, a card…

A poem I made specially for my friend…

And “ang-pow” (not in the pictures) and a song (which I sang for them during the reception. Hehe..)

Three cheers to Chie & Ann!!!…May God shower His Blessings upon you and your life together…Semoga Bahagia ke Anak Cucu! Love you Chie…God Bless. 🙂

…when too little is too much

How much are you willing to do to get someone?

If you outright tell them you like them, is that too much?

If you subtly give them hints, is that too little?

When is too little too much?

And when is too much too little?

Once upon a time, there was Alice and Bob. No one knew for sure how they became an item, but they were. They were the perfect couple. At least that’s how people saw them.

Suddenly, they break up.

After all those times, the “perfect partnership” was gone.

The world stood still.

What went wrong?

Mapplethorpe flower

Alice and Bob went their separate ways.

Years later, Alice and Bob met.

Alice was engaged to Chris.

Bob was still single.

Imagine how that meeting went…

Denise was at the meeting too.

Denise had liked Bob since who-knows-how-long – even before Bob broke up with Alice…

Now Denise is thinking:

Since Alice is engaged to Chris, surely Alice and Bob are over for good right? Should I make my move?

But a small voice inside Denise says:

Bob doesn’t even know you exist. Forget about Bob.

And another voice says:

What if Bob is still in love with Alice? What if Alice is still in love with Bob?

And the author asks:

What went wrong with Alice and Bob?

Did they give too little?

Did they give too much?

Should Chris be worried?

And what the hell should Denise do?

Just something to provoke your thoughts and feelings over the coming weekend…

Cheers! 🙂

Is (S)He The One?

Imagine you’ve had the opportunity to get to know a bunch of new people. They are ALL still single and for the sake of the discussion, YOU are ALSO single and secretly, ALL OF YOU are checking out each other for your Mr/Ms Right…Now with that in mind, which person below would you most likely be attracted to?

There are FOUR potential Mr/Ms Right


Let’s get to know the potential Mr Right first:

1. Will

Will was born with a silver spoon in his mouth. He went to the best schools and had the best life his parents could provide. Yet, he barely made it through college and he was still living on his parent’s deep pockets. In spite of this, he was a really sweet guy and people love him, even without knowing that he was filthy rich. It also helped that he was cute and had that boyish look that could melt any girl’s heart. He was humble and didn’t show-off his riches and he was a very friendly guy. And he was pretty loyal.

2. Matt

Matt was a bad boy when he was young. He got into fights and into trouble with the school. But when he grew up, he became a decent gentleman. Although he wasn’t one of the smartest in his class, he successfully made it through college and was already earning his own money. He had a job and although it might not pay so much, it was a stable one. He also had his own car. But he didn’t have Matt Dacascos’ looks or The Rock’s six-packs. He was just an ordinary guy.

3. Richard

Richard was a responsible, friendly and smart person – He even studied overseas for a while (on scholarship, as he wasn’t from a rich family). He wasn’t handsome but he had pretty good looks and an almost-perfect physique. He was charming and if he was talking with you, he’d give you his undivided attention. But he can sometimes rub people the wrong way. He has his own set of opinions and principles that he holds onto and he can be pretty vocal about them.

4. James

James did not go to college after high-school. His family couldn’t afford to pay his tuition fees so he started working instead. He did odd-jobs to get by and the money he earned, although not that much, he tried to send some to his family back home. Being the eldest son, he helped put his younger siblings through college. Through the years, he’s earned enough (and won more gambling) to buy a car which he had modified with spoilers and stuff. He was not handsome and he works in a factory.


Now, the potential Ms Right:-

1. Amanda

Amanda lived a comfortable life. She was the apple of her parent’s eyes. Even so, she wasn’t a spoiled rich brat. Not everything was handed to her on a silver platter. Nonetheless, she tended to be a little pampered. She didn’t do very well in her studies but she didn’t do very bad either. She wasn’t hot but she was pretty with her almost model-like height and slim figure. She usually got her way with things and she was someone people liked to befriend.

2. Juliet

Juliet sacrificed her social life for her academic achievements. She had never been in any intimate relationship, but she did graduate on the Honors roll at her college. She wasn’t hot but she was quite pretty and people enjoyed her company although some felt she was difficult to befriend. She was shy and secretive but those close to her knew she was a friendly and loving person. She was loyal and genuinely cared for those close to her. She was a very simple person at heart and just longed for acceptance by loved ones.

3. Fran

Fran was harsh and crude in some ways. She sometimes said things without thinking of their consequences. Because of that, she was not very good at keeping secrets. However, she was easily moved by emotions. If you mentioned anything sad or sounded sad, she would tear-up. And she is very loud (as in voice volume) when she speaks. She wasn’t hot but those close to her knew she was a caring and loving person. School, however, wasn’t her cup of tea. She tried, but she didn’t make it through college.

4. Janet

Janet was a petite girl. Although she is extremely playful, she didn’t do too badly in her studies and there are times when she can surprise people with her mature thoughts. She is a no-nonsense and a go-getter. She was determined to be in the right and have the last word in. She was equally determined to get hold of something if she had her eyes set on it. Even so, there was a side of her that cared deeply for those she loved, even if she might hurt them by her outspoken-ess. But practicing what she preached wasn’t her stronghold.


So which person above would you most likely be attracted to? Do you think He/She could be your Mr/Ms Right? Why?

Time…Come and Gone.

Briefly: I don’t get what this whole issue about Man-U-FIFA-FAM-Malaysia thing is all about…so…*blur*…but I do agree with Bong that “sungguh dalam the irony.” LOL.


Wow…time sure flies…it already almost the end of May…my birthday was last week and now next week, I’ll be heading to the Peninsular for my convocation…

I’m thankful that it’s not gonna be a solo journey…I would have liked it if the whole family could come up to Shah Alam for my convo (again) but due to budget constraints…I’ll just be me, my mom and my older bro.

Mom will come up to Kch on 22nd and then the three of us will fly to KL on 23rd. We’ll be staying at CSS so that should relieve the finances a bit…but then there’s still expenses I have to plan properly so we don’t exceed the tight budget…Preferably, I will be able to cover all the necessary costs…

I have the feeling that this coming trip will be the last time (in a long while if not never) I’ll be stepping on Peninsular grounds…after almost 3 years studying there, my “home away from home”…this may be the last goodbye…I’m gonna take back all my belongings that are still in my rented place in Shah Alam and when we leave for Kch again on the 27th (my convo on the 26th), I can pretty much predict it is with a heavy heart that I’ll be leaving…

I still remember the first time I went to Peninsular 3 years ago…It was my first time out of Borneo. I was 21…(Wah…so long time ago!)…and it was the first time I flew in an Airbus! Damn big when you’ve only been in a Boeing…so anyways, after arriving in KLIA, my friends and I (all first-time to Sjung one) used airport taxi (van actually since we had lotsa luggage) to go to Shah Alam…first thing we did was got “dumped” in front of Hotel UiTM cos the Uni didn’t provide us with accommodation…lame, I know…and the Hotel FULL some more…so we sat on the steps of the hotel and brainstormed where we’d stay that night…4 girls abandoned in a foreign place…fortunately we had each other’s company…

So we ended up crashing at a friend’s cousin’s place in Shah Alam (that friend also our “batch” but arrived few days earlier) for a few days…then crashed at another friend’s hostel room while waiting for our hostel room application to be approved…alas, they got a room but I didn’t. But 3 of us made a pact earlier on (“All for one, One for all”) so we started looking for a rented house…and we’ve never looked back ever since…

Almost a happy family, we stayed together for 1 and a half years with 3 other “batch”-mates but sometime along the way, some friendships crumbled, some grew stronger…and in the 2nd year, we went our separate ways…two moved out because they couldn’t see eye to eye with the others anymore…I moved out because I had to plan for the coming year. (I was the only one whose course took 2 and a half years. The others were to finish by 2nd year.)

So, my 2nd year…new house, new housemates, 9 of us…and this one just lasted 3 mths…I was really pissed off then when EVERYONE was planning to move out and conveniently FORGOT TO TELL ME!…2 weeks before the move, ONE of them finally told me. I had 2 weeks to find shelter so to speak…I couldn’t stay at that house alone…The rent was freakin expensive! That’s why there were NINE of us…

Desperate, I agreed to move in with 3 of the nine and “let bygones be bygones”…turned out not so bad actually…it was after this “leap of faith” that I really got to know my current housemates as well as “patch things up” with my old housemates (but the misunderstandings didn’t involve me exactly…I just happened to be in the middle of it. LOL)…My 3rd year was the best year I had in Sjung…I got to go to Planet Hollywood, Melaka, Putrajaya, The Curve, made new friends (Bong in particular. LOL.), …but still…so much I’ve yet to do…

Next week, I plan to…

AT LEAST have a proper farewell with my friends who are still studying/working there…just some “closure”…a proper goodbye…

And I HOPE to be able to go on the Eye on Malaysia…that’s NOW or NEVER cos that’ll only be in Taman Tasik Titiwangsa (TTT) – wherever that is – for Visit Malaysia Year 2007…so if you’re in Sjung and you have a car…I may call for a favor…puh-lease….pretty pppplllleeeeaaaasssseeee? *cough*Bong*cough*

TREAT my MOM to an all-expenses-paid *hopefully* “jalan2” and “makan2”…I want her to see where I’ve been living the past 3 years…also, I can never thank her enough for bringing me up to be the person I am now so…it’s the LEAST I could do…I want to make it a memorable “vacation” for her since it’ll just be me, my bro and her…she could use the break from being a full-time Mom (no house chores, no cooking, no worries)…at least for those few days…

And…LET MYSELF GOFREE of commitments, NO work…ALL play…all FUN…so people…be ready to get your hair down…I WANT TO PAINT THE TOWN RED!…or PINK at least…LOL.

*prays* Hope I can accomplish all that in a few days… (^_^) ”

Ready or not, Shah Alam…here I come…